I have been extremely lazy. There are so many things I need to do before I leave. There are so many things I need to do so I can leave. Perhaps the reason I am not doing them is because I am not ready to leave.
For the last time, I turned down the chance to stay, I think.
I am not satistied. I’m searching for something, and while I’m still unsure what it is, I don’t think I will find it here. I’m too young. Too restless. This is a town for those with calm hearts and peaceful minds. I have neither, and right now, don’t care for either.
Thursday. Tokyo. Yokohama. Kamakura. Nikko. Never the same look. Eyeshadow and lip gloss that matched my outfits. Monday.
Tuesday. Wore my glasses to work all week. No make up. Ponytail. Same jacket three days in a roll. Saturday.
I don’t know why I dress up on vacations. Not like I’m going to see any of the people I pass by. My friends have already seen the worst of me, i.e., when I wake up with a hangover. But whenever I’m on vacation, it feels like I’m trying to break free of the mundane routine I go through each day. I want to feel all new. From the me I see in the mirror to the me I feel walking down a strange path to an unknown destination.
Things that made my eyes complain this week.
50 First Dates
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Virgin Suicides
Legally Blonde 2
Naruto 1-40
My eyes complained because they were tired. I thoroughly enjoyed all the above and recommend them to everyone. Not much of a commentator though.
Tons of new music on my hard drive. No time to listen cuz I’m always watching something. So I leave my winamp on and my balcony door open. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night to the sound of motorcycles racing down the street and someone crying over lost love. Confused.
By the time we made it to the river, the lanterns were being gathered up and taken away. So we missed the annual, or in my case, the one and only chance to see this grand festival of our town. I don’t know if there were stars out tonight. Stars may shine beautifully and brightly, yet they are so far and unreachable. But candles, twinkling with its pale, fragile hint of brightness, lights up my spirit so much better than any star could.
I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I’m getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of?
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I’m getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
And if you have a minute why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don’t we go
Somewhere only we know?
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